Part III - Lindsey De Grande - Trying to Beat Cancer


In this update, I will tell you a bit more about my historic in-treatment, more specific, the first generation of drugs for CML patients, which I would take for about 16 months before switching to the second generation because of the side effects and too slowly decline of the cancer. I said it earlier: When I got diagnosed 4 years ago, my world collapsed. But the doctors said, 'if you respond well on the drug and the side effects are good, you may expect a good life quality and quantity. As optimistic as I am, (luckily I grew up that way thanks to my parents), I was very certain that everything would be just fine. What else would you expect, if even the doctor said so!

I remember how I was looking at my first pill, the first day of my treatment. Although I was training for the World championships, I immediately said, okay, let's start with the treatment now, because that way, I'm winning 6 weeks in the preparation for the Olympic Games next year. Those 6 weeks were the difference between finishing my track season at that point, or doing a few more races in the summer. The doctor who diagnosed me said that wouldn’t be a problem, because I got diagnosed in a very early stage, by ‘coincidence’. 

Nevertheless, for several months I was so tired, got more sick, and my physical activity became harder and harder. My specialist who was tracking my treatment said that waiting 6 weeks wasn’t an option. Luckily I had already decided not to wait. The timing worked out well and it was lucky that I wasn’t in China or Daegu for the Championships at that point. Looking backwards, those 6 weeks ‘winning with my treatment’ wouldn't made a different at all, even years would be to short to get me ready for running at professional level again. Maybe even all the years that will ever exist. At least, as long as the treatment persists. And it hurts. Maybe even more because in the beginning, it looked all just possible. There weren’t problems at all. The doctors said it could, so why shouldn't it? Don't get me wrong, I know running isn't everything. There is so much more in life. So many beautiful things. If you would tell me know, Lindsey, You will be cured, or even, you won't be cured, but you will feel just fine but you have to stop running. I would say, Okay, If that's necessary, where can I sign, although it is my passion, although it's the most pleasant thing I do. Not just running, but pushing myself hard and enjoying it. But nevertheless, It would hurt.